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Am i Your submissive, Your slave, what's the difference? Can You be my Master without me being a slave, will I lose myself if i'm Your slave?... Maybe submissive is a safer word? Do i make You happy, do i please You, do i make You proud? Am i enough for You, are You going to want more, am I going to disappoint? These are some of the thoughts that have popped into my head since i met You and started this journey. You have helped me to grow as a person. See, it's in my nature to over analyze, over think, not trust, not get too close to anyone. You are helping me be patient, helping me to calm my mind and enjoy living in the moment. As far as trust, that wasn't anything we had to work on, it was instant and it still blows my mind, but that is something i refuse to over think and just enjoy. . . I will still over think some things at times and these thoughts will pop in my mind. .. you help me to stop and redirect by being patient and wonderful. . . in moments like this, when everything is perfect i just have to write what i do know and what matters, so if those thoughts creep in again I can just read this. . . ..
*i know that i submit to You and your will because i've wanted to from the second I laid eyes on You. i am Your submissive because i chose to be, even though it came so natural, it didn't feel like a choice.
*i know that calling You Master is something that again just happenejd naturally, it wasn't something You asked me to do, it just happened because it feels right. .. it comes from the desire to be completely and totally Yours, no questions, no resistance. it comes from the desire to belong to You, to be Yours to do with as You please, to not just submit to You, but to belong to You, to be Your property. The desire to want to serve You, make You happy and make You proud.
*It doesn't matter if we fit into the box of what others consider M/s or D/s, it matters what it means to us. It matters that my limits and boundaries are what You say they are because i trust You and i know that You can read me and that You have my best interests in mind. It matters that the stories i heard about slaves and even some stuff i read about on fet that makes my stomach turn and made me shy away from that title, don't pertain to us because i know that You aren't cruel, sadistic and firm, but Not cruel.
*It matters that even though You are/can be sadistic and You like giving me pain, i know You won't take it to far. . i know i can literally trust You with my life in your hands.
*It matters that You tell me i make You proud and happy and that's the only confirmation i need. It matters that no matter who we bring in to play with, at the end of the day i am Yours and You're never going to replace me on a whim.
*It matters that i am Yours, mind and body
*It matters that when I've made You upset or disappointed You, it hurts my heart, and even if it wasn't on purpose, that's not the point and I still need to be punished.
*It matters that i know when You punish me it's for the right reasons and I will learn and grow from it, and i want to be punished. ... but, I'm not going to be a brat just to get punished because i know that will upset Master and punishments aren't supposed to be fun. .
And last, but not least I just want to say. . YES I BELONG TO YOU MASTER, YES YOU ARE MY MASTER, YES I AM YOUR PROPERTY AND, I LOVE IT!
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